Struggling with Sexual Immortality (CW: Adult)

My struggles with sexual immorality

Since I was a teen, I have had my struggles with sexual immorality.

Instead of going to God with my problems with bullying and self image, I went to porn and lust to make myself feel better.

I always am against sex before marriage and be against porn but I always felt like a hypocrite because I went through most of it.

Yesterday I sat through both church services that talked about sexual immorality and I had to talk to someone and thankfully one of my mentors Adam was there and we talked for maybe 15 minutes because while I want to have a wife someday who encourages me to chase after my purpose that God has for me, I wasn’t the man I needed to be.

I didn’t want to forgive myself or even have God forgive me because I did these things.

While I am single now, I hope that one day my wife will realize my past is my past and hopefully God will make me the husband I need to be for her because I want to love her as God loves both of us.

Don’t let lust or sexual immorality destroy your life, your potential relationships, and your mental health and brain because that’s how damaging that is and I would know.

Be the spouse you need to be so you can be free from the addiction you may have.

I plan to stay single until I know for a fact that I am ready for my wife and be the best husband I need to be someday.

#christian #forgiveness #singleness